The psychology of painting continues to intrigue me. What is it that makes an artist tick? In asking this question perhaps I am trying to find the answers to my own inner ticking. Some days I think I have the answer and then a strange form appears on the canvas with no where or why from whence it came.
Last night I turned to an article on Oscar Bluemner (1867-1938) in an old issue of Art in America (January, 2006). His life, unlike the vibrant colors of his paintings, was a story of penury, ultimate isolation, and subsequently suicide in 1938. Training as an architect in Germany and his emotional isolation in later life "appear" on the canvas side by side in his later works of the 30s–strong angular lines combined with curved swirling form almost as if depicting his inner maelstroms. According to the author, Richard Kalina, Bluemner felt that "art’s primary mission was not to depict the exterior world, but to illuminate the inner being of the artist." (99). And he seemed to do just that.
So what are my images telling the world about me? Several of my paintings focus on a woman standing alone or apart from peers. I have always felt a bit apart from most of my female peers. I would rather delve into issues of the world and solutions for problems than talk about the bargains at Costco. Then there are the medieval arches forming entrance into towns such as Avignon, one of my favorite towns in Provence. The Palais des Papes and I am not even Catholic. Long robed figures that could be religious icons from other times and places. I know that I operate from a spiritual place combining beliefs and values of other religions–more a compilation of parts of theological underpinnings instead of the theology of the religion I knew as a child. Just the fact that I ask these questions tells a lot about my past career as a diagnostic specialist working with learning disabled children. A PhD with reading and training in giving psychological tests, analyses of those tests, etc.
Regardless of what it is that makes me tick, I continue to paint, think, and write.